The voices calling me are always nothing but cold insults and curses. "Monster," "mother killer," and... "a woman without emotions." "Smile. You wouldn't be bullied if you could do that." The bully's dirty shoe tramples on the scars from my self-harm cuts. A searing pain. But the pain deep in my chest is even worse. When night becomes unbearable, I take a blade in my hands. When I cut my wrist, along with the blood, the breath trapped in my heart overflows, and for just a moment, I can breathe. "If only I could die tomorrow." I wish for this every night before sleep, yet God has abandoned me again today. After all, a "monster" like me has no will to live left anyway.
| Word | Frequency | Difficulty |
|---|---|---|
| 軽蔑 | 1 | 4.31 |
| 転ぶ | 1 | 3.77 |
| 連れて | 1 | 2.86 |
| 放る | 1 | 3.59 |
| 外竹 | 1 | 3.94 |
| 願う | 1 | 3.27 |
| 振る | 1 | 2.80 |
| 自分で | 1 | 2.97 |
| 支え | 1 | 3.37 |
| いつの間にか | 1 | 3.19 |
| 公園 | 1 | 3.94 |
| 叩きつける | 1 | 3.45 |
| 添える | 1 | 3.65 |
| 猫 | 1 | 2.91 |
| 殺す | 1 | 2.63 |
| 弁当 | 1 | 3.94 |
| 酔う | 1 | 3.78 |
| 反射的に | 1 | 3.75 |
| 幾つか | 1 | 3.13 |
| もし | 1 | 2.64 |
| 朝食 | 1 | 3.36 |
| 見上げる | 1 | 3.03 |
| 一瞥 | 1 | 3.77 |
| おお | 1 | 2.89 |
| 断る | 1 | 3.15 |
| 投げる | 1 | 3.49 |
| 笑い声 | 1 | 3.54 |
| 受けのいい | 1 | 6.59 |
| 指す | 1 | 3.83 |
| そ | 1 | 2.90 |
| 助ける | 1 | 3.17 |
| 立てる | 1 | 3.28 |
| 突き放す | 1 | 4.35 |
| かのように | 1 | 3.02 |
| 如何にも | 1 | 3.22 |
| メモ帳 | 1 | 4.66 |
| 感覚 | 1 | 2.95 |
| その事 | 1 | 3.14 |
| 懸 | 1 | 2.62 |
| 口角 | 1 | 4.11 |
| 考え | 1 | 2.19 |
| ねえ | 1 | 2.74 |
| 一方的 | 1 | 3.57 |
| 逃げ | 1 | 3.21 |
| 知らない | 1 | 2.68 |
| 鳴り | 1 | 4.07 |
| 少しでも | 1 | 3.32 |
| 何故か | 1 | 2.92 |
| 急いで | 1 | 3.33 |
| 押しやる | 1 | 4.68 |
| 足りる | 1 | 3.35 |
| 手を出す | 1 | 3.90 |
| 子供 | 1 | 2.60 |
| まとも | 1 | 3.58 |
| 夕陽 | 1 | 4.45 |
| すれば | 1 | 2.59 |
| 間違え | 1 | 3.80 |
| 外に | 1 | 2.98 |
| 悪魔 | 1 | 3.04 |
| すんな | 1 | 3.96 |
| 馬鹿に | 1 | 3.68 |
| 本当に | 1 | 2.34 |
| される | 1 | 2.48 |
| 所 | 1 | 2.78 |
| 心臓 | 1 | 3.28 |
| とにかく | 1 | 3.04 |
| 続く | 1 | 2.90 |
| 丸で | 1 | 2.60 |
| 役目 | 1 | 3.38 |
| 追いかける | 1 | 3.34 |
| はぁ | 1 | 2.88 |
| 答える | 1 | 2.69 |
| 決める | 1 | 2.93 |
| 瞳 | 1 | 2.67 |
| 背ける | 1 | 4.01 |
| 散る | 1 | 3.52 |
| 出す | 1 | 2.43 |
| それも | 1 | 2.72 |
| 言い捨てる | 1 | 4.48 |
| まー | 1 | 3.87 |
| をして | 1 | 2.06 |
| 非難 | 1 | 3.84 |
| 遭う | 1 | 3.72 |
| 入れ歯 | 1 | 3.16 |
| 探り | 1 | 4.11 |
| より | 1 | 2.31 |
| 準備 | 1 | 2.67 |
| 振り払う | 1 | 3.79 |
| 掴む | 1 | 3.00 |
| 迷子 | 1 | 4.07 |
| 眉間 | 1 | 3.66 |
| 机 | 1 | 3.21 |
| ここ | 1 | 2.11 |
| お願い | 1 | 2.92 |
| 処世術 | 1 | 5.08 |
| 視野 | 1 | 3.66 |
| 挨拶 | 1 | 2.94 |
| 小さい頃 | 1 | 4.07 |
| 丁寧 | 1 | 3.39 |
| 屋上 | 1 | 3.93 |
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