The voices calling me are always nothing but cold insults and curses. "Monster," "mother killer," and... "a woman without emotions." "Smile. You wouldn't be bullied if you could do that." The bully's dirty shoe tramples on the scars from my self-harm cuts. A searing pain. But the pain deep in my chest is even worse. When night becomes unbearable, I take a blade in my hands. When I cut my wrist, along with the blood, the breath trapped in my heart overflows, and for just a moment, I can breathe. "If only I could die tomorrow." I wish for this every night before sleep, yet God has abandoned me again today. After all, a "monster" like me has no will to live left anyway.
| Word | Frequency | Difficulty |
|---|---|---|
| 胃 | 1 | 3.81 |
| 現在 | 1 | 2.87 |
| 広げる | 1 | 3.18 |
| 臭い | 1 | 3.42 |
| 詰め | 1 | 3.50 |
| 主 | 1 | 2.62 |
| 返す | 1 | 2.90 |
| まとも | 1 | 3.58 |
| 見つける | 1 | 2.80 |
| 探り | 1 | 4.11 |
| をして | 1 | 2.06 |
| チョコ | 1 | 3.95 |
| 手おけ | 1 | 3.35 |
| 汚 | 1 | 4.68 |
| 午前 | 1 | 3.84 |
| 直ぐ | 1 | 2.97 |
| 弁え | 1 | 4.20 |
| 起こし | 1 | 3.33 |
| 目が覚める | 1 | 4.44 |
| 信じる | 1 | 2.80 |
| 背中 | 1 | 2.80 |
| 遭う | 1 | 3.72 |
| 正邪 | 1 | 4.28 |
| 休み | 1 | 3.57 |
| 転ぶ | 1 | 3.77 |
| 耳にする | 1 | 4.60 |
| 早い | 1 | 2.99 |
| 調子 | 1 | 3.23 |
| 安心 | 1 | 2.88 |
| とは | 1 | 1.95 |
| 何故か | 1 | 2.92 |
| ずっと | 1 | 2.68 |
| 端 | 1 | 3.22 |
| 軽蔑 | 1 | 4.31 |
| パチンコ | 1 | 5.08 |
| 睨む | 1 | 3.25 |
| 顔立ち | 1 | 3.62 |
| 以内 | 1 | 2.31 |
| 後ろ | 1 | 2.63 |
| 戸惑い | 1 | 3.73 |
| 指す | 1 | 3.83 |
| ひそひそ | 1 | 4.50 |
| 注目 | 1 | 3.52 |
| おお | 1 | 2.89 |
| あの人 | 1 | 3.29 |
| 悲しい | 1 | 3.34 |
| 刺す | 1 | 3.50 |
| 僅かに | 1 | 3.13 |
| 急ぐ | 1 | 3.42 |
| 心地よい | 1 | 3.92 |
| そんなに | 1 | 2.88 |
| 最終的 | 1 | 3.50 |
| 口角 | 1 | 4.11 |
| 時々 | 1 | 3.53 |
| その場 | 1 | 2.86 |
| 出す | 1 | 2.43 |
| 慣れ | 1 | 3.18 |
| 丸くなる | 1 | 4.95 |
| 知る | 1 | 2.11 |
| 何て | 1 | 3.87 |
| 変に | 1 | 3.93 |
| そろそろ | 1 | 2.88 |
| 好き | 1 | 2.59 |
| どっち | 1 | 3.48 |
| いつの頃からか | 1 | 5.41 |
| 入れ歯 | 1 | 3.16 |
| 外に | 1 | 2.98 |
| 灯る | 1 | 4.09 |
| 汚れ | 1 | 3.65 |
| 尚更 | 1 | 3.69 |
| にこっと | 1 | 4.88 |
| 倒れる | 1 | 3.23 |
| ライター | 1 | 4.71 |
| 唇 | 1 | 3.15 |
| 湿る | 1 | 4.03 |
| いいか | 1 | 3.15 |
| じゃん | 1 | 3.55 |
| もん | 1 | 2.71 |
| 悪口 | 1 | 4.23 |
| なんか | 1 | 2.48 |
| ばかり | 1 | 2.53 |
| 変わり | 1 | 3.44 |
| 危険 | 1 | 2.75 |
| 一度だけ | 1 | 3.95 |
| 赤い | 1 | 2.81 |
| 明るい | 1 | 3.19 |
| 音 | 1 | 2.39 |
| 後で | 1 | 2.94 |
| ノート | 1 | 3.85 |
| 無ければ | 1 | 3.11 |
| 守る | 1 | 2.66 |
| 割 | 1 | 3.87 |
| 世界 | 1 | 2.18 |
| 散る | 1 | 3.52 |
| と言うより | 1 | 3.10 |
| 淡い | 1 | 3.61 |
| 見開き | 1 | 4.03 |
| こみ上げる | 1 | 4.32 |
| 願う | 1 | 3.27 |
| 支え | 1 | 3.37 |
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