Why are you alive then?

Why are you alive then?

月白ヤトヒコ

I was summoned by my father. No, wait. When I call him "father," he glares at me with eyes full of hatred and says, "You have no right to call me father—you who took her life. It's abominable." So should I call him "Your Marquess" instead? "...Your engagement has been decided. I cannot possibly allow you, who took her life, to find happiness. But it is for the sake of the house. I cannot forgive you for being happy, much as I despise you, but marry and produce an heir." Along with his blunt words, the betrothal agreement was thrown at me. "I must respectfully decline the engagement. Or rather, I cannot accept it. I am a sinful existence, born from taking my mother's life. I intend to enter the church and offer my prayers. I have no intention of inheriting this house, so please take in an adopted child and have them inherit instead." "You—do you even understand what you're saying!? I am offering to let you, sinful as you are, inherit this house!? Be grateful!!" "No, I am fully aware of my own sinfulness. It would be unforgivable for someone like me to inherit the house. After all, isn't it what Your Marquess always says? 'Be grateful that I even let you live, you sinner.' Therefore, as a sinner, I shall go to the church to atone for my sins and pray for my mother's eternal peace." A heavy, dark story of this nature. The setting is loose. Some might find it stomach-turning. Published on Alphapolis and Kakuyomu.

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Reading Time
43 min
Words 1,857
Sentences 199
Characters 3,475
Unique Words 565
1-Occurrence Words
341
Unique Kanji 369
1-Occurrence Kanji
175
Avg Word Difficulty 2.08
Avg Sentence Length 9.3

Word List (565 words)

WordFrequencyDifficulty
14.12
ダーク13.98
時に12.57
何で12.52
良くある13.90
実の13.93
解る13.37
ありがとう御座います12.84
ものの12.77
について12.42
短編14.35
笑顔12.66
至極14.03
激昂14.17
喜ぶ13.26
以内12.31
接触13.42
管理13.26
そうです12.73
健康13.94
温かい13.58
後妻14.59
お手柔らかに14.81
謝罪13.36
言葉通り13.92
暮らし13.33
それなのに13.56
13.23
乗っ取り14.75
祈り13.60
ノック13.54
大丈夫12.38
とも12.37
生物学15.33
広める14.15
それ程13.03
という物12.99
だろ12.69
その時12.75
11.87
これから先14.07
けれど12.43
自分語り15.45
本気で13.19
そんな風に13.28
12.08
詫びる14.38
受理14.18
慈悲14.01
少々13.17
これまで13.00
発来15.00
ですから12.87
作品13.46
僧尼12.52
どちら13.37
発散14.30
13.21
いいね13.98
正式13.46
口止め14.42
意見13.05
学校13.04
冥福を祈る15.49
お返し14.00

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